Time flies on.....

12.30.04 (10:10 pm)

:? Well, here we go, another year has gone away. And who said "Time Flies By When You Are Having Fun"? What if I don't remember having any fun? Hmmm, makes one wonder. I had to say good-bye to a co-worker today, and while I hadn't known her for a long time, I was very sad to see her go. It wasn't as if she was leaving for another job, but she is taking off for a medical leave. And while she didn't talk about what was wrong with her, you didn't have to be a rocket scientist to see that someting was wrong with her health. And it broke my heart. But something she told me, that profound me deeply. She said that she didn't want to let people to know what was wrong with her. Cause she didn't want people to go "you poor thing". She didn't want to hear about bad things, or have people feel sorry for her, cause she knows that what ever the outcome is, she is in God's hands. And that is what that is what matters most to her. She doesn't want to be around people that will bring her down, and depress her, she can easily do that on her own. But She wants to be around people that will cheer her up, and Praise God with her. Cause no matter what happens with her, where she stays around here on earth, or "goes on home", she wins either way. While she was sharing this with me, she remind me of a man I knew from a church I used to attend. I had a "falling out" with the church I been attending for a number of years, but "Babe" I had found out, had gotten lung cancer, and was not expecting to live long. And this man never smoke in his life. But any way, as soon as I heard he had taken ill, I went to go see him. ( I didn't care if I ran into someone from the church) And while he was up there in age, I never seen him as frail as he was when I saw him for what would be the last time alive. And here was this man, well season in his years, in pain, and having to sucumb to such a horrible thing. Yet the thing that I will never forget that he told me while I was there. And it  was "How he praise God for giving him another day on the earth, so he can be a witness to others of God's love for him and everyone that was to be in contact with him that day, and how God found him worthy to be able to deliver such a message, and what a wonderful gift that was". Needless to say, that brought tears to my eyes. Knowing how much this man love God and was thankful for every moment he had to be on earth, in pain or not. Makes me wonder, how selfish I am when I don't Praise God enought, for the days He gives me, good or bad. For the moments, seconds, and the every day brief encounters with people that  I run into in my everyday life. How I want to be able to see people through my Fathers eyes, so I can see what he sees in them, and not what the human in me sees. And to cherish the time I have with them, before he takes them out of my life. And to take these "nuggets" he gives me, and share them with others, so that they too, can see my Fathers face. Good bye "Babe" you are missed So Long Ms. J.... you will be missed And to you the reader May God Bless you all this New year and many more to come, and I pray that you will too will see others through my Fathers eyes.....